I Want A Simple Life

I want a simple life I want simple, yet I’d gladly take back my normal life I want a simple life, where things move and operate smoothly. I expect hiccups along the way, yet I’m tired of being a living, walking, talking, breathing hiccup. I want to put a plan together and see it executed with limited interruption. Fantasy world I suppose, yet I desire a simple life. I want a partner to help carry the load. Well, in all honesty, I want to dump the load - not forever, just for a little while so I can catch my breath. I want a simple life where I can genuinely, in good spirits greet the birds and take in a deep breath of stifling hot Georgia July air. I want a simple life where I can feed my child and not be concerned with cleaning up vomit or poop 30 minutes later. I want a simple life where I don’t have to worry about my back locking up as I transfer said child from bed to chair and back again. I want a simple life where I can do laundry one, two days max, out of the week instead of every day.

I want a simple life where I can count on business people to do what they say they’re going to do and be men/women of integrity. And if there is a hiccup causing things to go awry, then to maintain communication and not assume I know what the problem is, when and how it’ll get fixed. I want a simple life where people are kind and considerate of others. You know, where people will hold a door open for you. Or say please and thank you. Or wear a f*cking mask so they protect me from them and vice versa. I want a simple life. I want world peace. I want people’s basic needs met - where there’s no worry for food, clean water, clothes or shelter. I want a simple life where I can take my kid to the doctor and expect them to have the necessary equipment aka a wheelchair scale to weigh him. I understand it’s an expensive piece of equipment. I understand it’s inconvenient to find a place to store it. I also understand that he can’t walk or stand not because he doesn’t want to but because he can’t. I want a simple life where different doesn’t mean less. I want a simple life where everything I say isn’t rebutted or challenged. I want a simple life and for my grief journey to be easy. I want a simple life; I’m tired of doing hard things. I want a simple life where I can just be. I want a simple life, yet that’s never been in the cards for me. I want my normal back - I will take doing all those above mentioned hard things without complaint. My normal will enable me to live my life more simply.